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Saturday, November 17, 2007 8:26 pm
now i realise hw precious you are to me listen, ♥  baby, i wanna tell you a secret. hellllos! (x LOL! (x boredddddddd! meooww! LOL! (x haiish. my eyes are itchy luhs! sian diaos! just received rebecca's letter! sooooo happy. (: heeeeees! (: i miss her. i wish she could come hm soon. 15 more days! (: looking forward. counting down. must reply letter lerhs. boredddddddddd! working on monday. LOL! (x boreddddddddddd! nth to blog abt. today's BORING! like totally. no matches as well. haiish. total boredom! byeeeeeees! this lil light of mine, i'm gonna let it shine. this lil light of mine, i'm gonna let it shine. this lil light of mine, i'm gonna let it shine, let it shine, let it shine, all the time! dun let satan blow it our, i'm gonna let it shine! dun let satan blow it out, i'm gonna let it shine! dun let satan blow it out, i'm gonna let it shine, let it shine, let it shine, all the time! LET ME BE YOUR BIGGEST SECRET. an empty heart. CLARE! (:
Friday, November 16, 2007 9:29 pm
i still believe i rock your world listen, ♥  & i matter just as much as before. IT TAKES ALOT OF COURAGE TO SAY ILOVEYOU. EMPTY PROMISES. we've braved through so much together. CLARE! (:
3:41 pm
we've braved every danger together listen, ♥  against all odds. YES! like FINALLY luhs! i can upload pics! hahahhas. aft bitching for so long. i can finally upload pics. (; guess how happy i am. LOLOL! (x yeahhhhh! LOLOLS! (x LOLOL! (x yays! THANKS DESIREE SWEETHEART! xDD LOVE! x33 boredd stiff. alrights! GOODBYEEEEEE! xP GIVE ME YOUR TOMORROWS. you left me wondering why. CLARE! (:
Thursday, November 15, 2007 1:29 am
your words always touch my heart, your iloveyous make my day. listen, ♥ i'll always refuse to say the words you wanna hear. i carnt sleep at all. ): its getting really petatic. haiish. damn life. i'm bored and sick of everything. have to pack things for malaysia soon. but i'm toooo lazy to. its like 130 in the morning? the wee hours of the morning and i havent slept yet. gosh! wth man! whees` ltr can go out lerhs! YAYS! (: so looking forward to it please! hahahas. omg, that reminds me. i gt no outing clothes. (x seesh. its all in the laundry. LOL! (x damn. let's see what i can do bahs. i'm bored. and i'm dying. i'm extremely hungry. bleahs! this sucks luhs. (x i'm gonna sleep soon i guess. lalalas` alrights, its time i get to sleep. -crossing fingers- i hope i sleep. LOLS! (x i'm waiting for you to say the things i wanna hear. would you? i nvr promised to wait for you. just call out my name, and i will be there. just to show you hw much you mean to mean. baby hold my hand and tell me you love me. x33 just tell me what i really mean to you in your heart. alrights, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTY! (; DUN WASTE YOUR TIME ON ME. what have we nt gone through together? CLARE! (:
Wednesday, November 14, 2007 9:09 pm
dearest, do you knw hw much i mean to you? listen, ♥ there are times in our lives whn we have to let go. damn blogger luhs. idiotic lorhs. damn sian luhs. always cannot upload pictures. damn! this sucks lorhs! siann diaos luhs. haiish. damn pek chek. havent been blogging. damnn pek chek luhs! walao ehs. i'm gonna kill blogger luhs. LOL! so damn irritated. ohh well, theres nth i can do. BLEAHS! (x this sucks can? lalalas` boredd. LOL! didnt even go out on tuesday. super pissed but ohh well. whatever luhs. damn life. TOODLES! i hate copycats please! WHN YOU'RE GONE, THE PIECES OF MY HEART ARE MISSING YOU. in the game of seduction. CLARE! (:
Monday, November 12, 2007 5:45 pm
a moment of silence isnt a moment of regret listen, ♥ i felt my heart unbend. FARK! blogger just refuses to let me upload a picture. hw many freaking days have i tried? they are bloody preventing me frm my rights! this SUCKS! damn pissed off luhs. havent been blogging and have no mood to alrdy. oh yahh, MANCHESTER UNITED won BLACKBURN 2-0. YAYS! (: super duper happy luhs! LOL! when you love someone, all you want them to do is be happy. anyway, BYEEE! xDD I COULDNT HELP PAST MEMORIES THAT WOULD MAKE ME CRY. forget my first love and give love a second chance. CLARE! (:
Saturday, November 10, 2007 12:30 am
fairytale life isn't for me listen, ♥ reality sucks! i'm feeling bored and terribly sadd. i'm begining for feel what have i to do in life. whn will my time be ovr? maybe everything was just a dream, i thought to myself. but the truth is all ovr. its in black and white. what more can i ask for? in life, friendship can be bought or sold. tell me what is a friendship that can be bought. kinshipp is no longer as valuable as it used to be. families are breaking up because of money. and love has always been taken for granted. what kind oof world are we living in? what kind of society are we growing up in? at times, i really wonder. well, am i a valuable asset in life? will i be of greater value? why am i working so hard? why am i studying so hard? will it and is it really that difficult to make ends meet without education? i think to myself. i ask myself. and i begin to doubt myself, as well as life. am i leading the life i want to? or is this the life others want me to live? all of us wears a mask. i really wonder which of it iis the real us? are we born to hide our identity? or are we brought into this world to just do so? whn i close my eyes, i really wish i would never awake the nxt day. but it won't happen. its been proven day in and day out. its nt easy to die. and every morning i wake up thannking god for a brand new day. but am i really contented with what i have? what am i really thinking about? what am i thinking of, do you really knw? people think they knw me inside out. but i dun even knw myself. i dun even knw what i want and dun want. why do you people think you knw me? what makes you people so sure i am that kind of person? i wear different mask everyday. you'll nvr knw who i am and what my role is for the day. let alone myself. so how can you people say you knw me inside out? what do you people really knw abt me? nothing! nothing at all. i'm bored, sadd and totally helpless. i wish i could die this instant. but what help does it do? i wanna live an extra odinary life. i wanna be the happiest person alive. but am i able to achiieve this kind of standard? no, i'm not. i'm starting to doubt myself, i'm begining to drat life. i'm still wondering why am i here? why am i blogging my unhappiness here? why am i pouring out my feelings? i feel so helpless and sadd. death seems to be the only way out. its never too late for regrets is it? thats a bloody lie. kill me if love truly exist. so that i'll never live to see that day. if love is blind, thn what are bats? i thought bats were blind? what makes love blind? i really wonder. and whr in the world did that phrase come frm? doings of man. i really need a break frm life. take me away. to a far away place. whr there is peace and i can be at yease. leave me all alone to die. and never to return again. i miss my childhood days. i wanna turn bck time. to really love and understand, and to never have let you go. baby, tell me it was all a dream. and that i have finally awaken. baby, will you hold my hand again and say you love me like never before. and thaat you'll never leave me ever again? baby, i've let you go once. i'll never let you go again. hold me in your embrace. let me be the one to hold you and embrace you. and to tell you hw much you mean to me, and how much i love you. baby, my will to live is no longer as strong as before. i just wanna hold you tight and tell you hw much you mean to me. hold me tight and say you'll never leave me. and once again, i open my eyes to see the dying earth again. the pain i'm going through never dies. baby, we've share our lives too much that we had to let go. let me tell you a secret. i've never forgotten you. i've never given up on you. i'll never let you go. baby, we share a secret. death isn't a very scary thing aft all. THE REALITY OF LIFE. and they lived happily ever after. CLARE! [;
12:07 am
my fair weather friends listen, ♥ only you knw hw much i mean to you. haiish. ): blogger just refuses to let me upload pictures. ): i am sadd and angry. i've been trying since like 7+? and its like 1210 please! so irritated luhs. haiish. ): its alright. i'll have to upload it another time, or maybe nt upload at all. hahas. yeahh. haiish. ): i had a fun day today i would say. my loves came to find me. so happy. (: LOLS! its been 3 weeks since we last met, so yahh. LOL! (: you shld knw hw happy i was to see them. (; carnt remember what i did on thursday. LOL! i think i was home the whole day. lololols! (x FRIDAY! xDD woke up at 1pm. LOL! (x went down to buy newspaper, read the newspaper and thn swept the floor. did my hsewrk. i wiped the windows. (; -credits ; applause- LOLS! (x thn ate lunch. LOLS! (x had lunch at like 3pm? but my stomach started to growl at 530pm. LOLS! (x thn helped kerby with his hsewrk aft lunch. i'm kind and nice alright? kidding! (x nt so thick skin derhs. LOLOLS! (x thn my dearr and sweetie asked me if they could come to my hse. and obviously i would. they told me their stories and we went down for dinner. i ate fries and drank coke only. cos i had to go home for dinner. hahahahs. yupps. thn went home aft buying marcus's treats. thn sent dearr and sweetie to the bus stop. dearr's and thn sweetie's. yupps. (; thn i walked home. went online. waited to dearr and sweetie. hahahas. thn they came online and thn we started chatting frm like 730 or 745? yupps. all the way to 1030? lolols! we didnt wanna leave the conversation. but dearr had to sleep. so i left the conversation so that they bth would leave as well. and off we went. i'm nw online again. LOLS! (x yupps. but i'll be going to sleep aft i blogg. nt tired and super bored. so might as well sleep luhs. LOLS! (x yupps. i had funn and was quite happy today. cos i had dearr and sweetie to accompany me. THANKS DEARR! THANKS SWEETIE! i enjoyed my day alot alot. LOVES! x33 i miss rebecca really very much. i wish she was bck in singapore. thn i have someone to accompany me. looking forward to her return. going out with dearr and sweetie nxt tuesday. hehes. (: happy happy! so long nvr go out lerhs. hehehhehes! (x excited and ovrjoyed! (; haiish, i wish i could turn bck time. and learn hw to love and treasure you. its all in the past and its all lies anyway. i wish i nvr knew you. let alone be with you. alrighties! (; i miss rebecca and my sweethearts! i get to see my sweethearts tmr. (: YAYS! (: super happy can? LOLOLOLS! (x yupps. and thats all. LOVES! x33 whisper and say the words i wanna hear. baby, is love me and you. & i miss you, you knw? your courage took me by surprise. i wish i was living in my dreams, nvr to awake to see this world again. baby, i love you. JUST TO SHOW YOU HW MUCH I CARE. take a walk down memory lane with me. CLARE! (;
Wednesday, November 07, 2007 4:46 pm
always treasure the love that we share. listen, ♥  carnt you see hw much i need you right nw? i'm boreddddddd! haiish. ): boredddddd stiffffffffffff luhs! no one's online to talk to. siannnnn. haiish. ): & if time is on our side, there is no more tears to cry. meowwwww! ): i'm dying of boredom. i go to leave my hse! i'm bored fark pls! seesh! haiish. ): damn bored! i wanna go out! i wanna go out! i wanna go out! i miss rebecca! ): counting down to o2 december! LOLS! (x 25 more days! AT LEAST YOU COULD HEAR ME OUT FIRST. cause i dun need you anymore! CLARE! (:
3:39 pm
betrayed by. listen, ♥  shattered forever. lalalallas~ i'm boredd! because nothing last forever. you are my nothing. and that's all i'm gonna say. goodbyeeee! YOU MEAN THAT MUCH TO ME. to the ends of time. CLARE! (:
12:20 am
in my life you're all that matters listen, ♥  in my eyes the only truth i see. i'm trying hard to forget and let go. but everything seems sooo impossible. whats so charming and addictive about you? i really wonder at times. well, memories dwell on. never dwell on the past. yes, i'm trying to convince myself. but i'm afraid i failed to do so. letting go of someone special to you is tough. and its never easy. even to live, isnt as easy. its nt gonna be easy giving you up. but i have to let go. i couldn't help past memories that would make me cry, i have to forget my first love and give love a second chance. remember? hahas. i've been boredd the whole day, mainly just thinking. of you and of all the things we've been through. the times we stood by each other was irreplacable! i miss you. ): life's been tough. and its nt gonna get any better. oh yahh, i was suspose to celebrate my 1st year as a confirmed catholic ytd. lolols, but guess what. as usual, i forgot all abt it. i forgot to soak my contact lenses too. damn it. lolols! alrighties. its like o7 november lerhs. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEREMY! x33 WHN MY HOPES AND DREAMS ARE SHATTERED, YOU'RE THE ONE THAT'S THERE FOR ME. lied to. CLARE! (:
Tuesday, November 06, 2007 7:54 pm
in my heart, there you will always be. listen, ♥  just call out my name and i will be there. there was sooo much things i wanted to blog abt. but i've forgotten what i want to blog lerhs. LOLS! blahh blahh blahh. nvrmind. lolols! okayys. since theres nth to blog abt, GOODBYE! (: i miss my friends. ): i miss rebecca! ]: haiish. ): you should never call your girlfriend a bitch. JUST TO SHOW YOU HOW MUCH I CARE. i just need another day with you. CLARE! (:
Monday, November 05, 2007 11:51 pm
& frm the start, i've always loved you. listen, ♥  cause i'm wayy better! lololols! i'mm blogging AGAIN. simply because i'm BORED! lols! yupps. nothing much today i would say. and i can tell you i'm dead bored. lololols! holiday rocks but boredom sucks please! lololols! shu ee came and she left alrdy. i had sticky chewy chocolate frm swensens earlier on. YUMMY! (; delicious please! enjoyed it soooo much. lololols! haiish, bored stiff. planning to do hsewrk tmr. and thn try to clear my room, and start throwing books away. lolols! nanny must be damn glad to see this post, that is if she ever sees it luhs. lololols! (x oh yahh, changed blogskin. i editted the original one. and it looks quite okayy i guess, i hope and am crossing my fingers. the designers one was tooo bright. so i changed it a little. (: lololols! nt criticising it hors! LOLS! the extras part i made a slideshow frm rockyou. lololols! yupps. and because i didnt noe what to do. i just did it anyhw. lololols! yupps. i think i shld sleep soon so that i can wake up to do the hsewrk tmr please! lololols! sometimes, i carnt help but hate my eldest brother. i dunno why, but wtf is his shithead problem. he just loves to have things his way and i simply hate it please! yes, it is alright to want things your way. but to demand that things go your way simply sucks please! damn! i hate the way he speak to my nanny. i just feel like slapping his freaking face. but oh well, aft all he is my freaking brother. lololols! and if he does anything to hurt my nanny, i'll make sure he pays for it. so what if i'm small? what i have is brains. and i am CONFIDENT i can out smart him please! lalalalas! but his love for mandy is UNSPEAKABLE please! lolololols! only if he shows his family this kind of love. omg, i dunno wth i'm gonna do tmr. i'm dying please! oh yahh, and did i tell you that i had nothing better to do ytd night, because i couldnt sleep? guess what i did. lolololols! i digged the whole hse to find photos and i saw them throughout the night. lolololols! thatts all. GOODBYE! (: fark you brother! i dun wanna hate you! DOUBT ME ALL YOU WANT. judge me for all i care. CLARE! (:
4:07 pm
make me your first hello but last goodbye listen, ♥  in my heart, its you alone. i just realise i forgot to tell you the score for the match. ARSENAL vs MANCHESTER UNITED. its was a draw. sadly, but it least we did our very best. though we could have won. oh well, so be it. but i'm very much happy. at least its a draw. we didnt lose. (: so theres nothing to lose at all. (: yupps. ytd was sunday and i blogged that i woke up at 230pm. lols. i slept at 4am this morning and woke up at 130pm. lololols! (x yupp yupp. i'm crazy. being a night owl. lololols! i'm being retarded. i didnt plan to wait for my brothers and thomas to come home, but i couldnt sleep. so i stayed up watching the westham vs bolton match. and they came home. lololols! thomas and kerby was hungry. so they ordered macs. and it came at 3am in the morning aft we waited for 90 mins. THANKS FOR MACS THOMAS! (: lololols! (x yupps. ate and thn slept. and woke up late today. whees` i'm bored stiff at home and am going crazy please! blahh blahh blahh. lololols! (x i gt to start doing the hse work soon i guess. christmas is coming!! LOLOLOLOLS! (x theres more thn 1 month though. LOLS! (x i'm being retarded. insanity. goodbye. oh and, i decided to give it all up. its nt worth it. (: GOODBYE! xDDD OUR FOOTSTEPS. maybe it wrong, right frm the begining. CLARE! (:
Sunday, November 04, 2007 9:29 pm
for the love of you listen, ♥  this is how much you mean to me. jeremy's birthday is a success i would say. he probably enjoys himself. and i did not get to see my love. oh well, so be iit. its time to let go. (: life goes on and whee` i am so not happy with what i have.. whatever luhs. ): lalallalalals~ i simply dun understand why some people are sooooo i would say IDIOTIC. haiish. LIFE SUCKS! i'm serious please! i saw this super awesome MANCHESTER UNITED bag frm nike at vivo city. and omg, guess what? i've craving it. but its like sooooo expensive. ): thats the sadd sadd part luhs. haiish. and MANCHESTER UNITED's new jacket iis AWESOME please! lalalalallas~ i gt alot of things to say but i wun. forget it luhs. i slept at like 5am. woke up at 230pm. lololols! boring day. replied rebecca's letter and posted it. whees` ohh well, goodbye. fark life. YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING UNTIL THE DAY YOU LEFT ME. would it be wise to say iloveyou? CLARE! (:
Friday, November 02, 2007 2:11 pm
let me always be on your mind listen, ♥  in your heart, i will always be. meowww! ): i'm formatting poddy now. ): dunno what happened to poddy. i'm worried. ): meowwww! ): woke up late late late. LOLS! (x too lazy to reply msges. xP sorry. i hope poddy's alright. i went online and sweetie said she was bored. LOLS! (x we played games and thn she gt d/c for very long. LOLS! (x so i decided to reformat poddy. but it staking so longg and i'm worried please! meowww! ): alrights. thats all. i have nth much to blog abt. its holidays! YAYS! (: but the fact that it is boring KILLS please! LOLS! (; alrighties, goodbye! celebrating jeremy's birthday tmr. (: lols! i get to see you knw who. (: hahahahahas. yupps. and tmr's match will be extremely EXCITING please! ARSENAL vs MANCHESTER UNITED! xDDD GO MANCHESTER UNITED! (: YOU'RE THE CLUB! omg! how can i not love MANCHESTER UNITED? lols! I LOVE RONALDO MORE! xDDD alrights. goodbye. come on poddy! wake up! LOLS! (x EVEN TILL THE ENDS OF THE WORLD. hold me in your embrace. CLARE! (:
Thursday, November 01, 2007 9:32 pm
never let me fade away listen, ♥  thanks for the memories. i finally collected my passport. (: did i tell you that? hahh` whatever luhs. i'm boreddddddddddd!! lalalalalallalalalalalalallas~ I MISS YOU! ehh, i want simple plan songs!!! LOLS! tagg me if have pls! (: thanksssssss! EVERYTHING I DO, I DO IT FOR YOU. hold me close and tight. CLARE! (:
4:18 pm
011107 listen, ♥  you're the answer to my questions. stupid neighbours are like renovating their house again. and they woke me up like EARLY in the morning luhs! so irritated by it. 9+ wake the whole family up. ass! ohh well, woke up and thn got ready. left the hse to meet daddy. and thn collected our passport. yupps. the we waited for 36 mins before we actually left. thn came arnd the area to have lunch. bloated. lols. ate ALOT! going to church ltr. and i wanna sleep. LOLS! okayy. thats all for today. GOODBYE! xP cause you're afraid to knw the answer. YOU NEVER KNEW HOW MUCH YOU MEAN TO ME. in return, i'll give you my heart. CLARE! (: |
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